This is Day One

I've been talking and losing weight for months years. Yet here I am, still my size 18 self. I've always had the intention, but can never muster up the motivation. I live in one of the healthiest cities in the county (Austin) and everywhere I look I see reasons to get off my ass and get healthy. I see people jogging every morning and night and biking up and down the streets.

I want to feel comfortable enough to wear shorts along with the rest of the leggy beauties instead of burning up in jeans every night and weekend. I want to be able to bike ride, hike and enjoy a nice full day instead of  calling it quits after a couple of breathtaking (literally) hours. And most importantly, I want to feel comfortable in my own body. For most of my 28 years, I have not had a day where a kajillion negative thoughts march through my head.

"I look pregnant every single time I sit down."

"This chair always creaks when I sit on it."

"Can they hear feel me walking down the hallways at work??"

This blog is the mark of Day 1 (again). I'm going to use this blog as my sounding board, a place to vent my frustrations and my accomplishments. And,Lord, do I hope that there are accomplishments.

No more wasted gym memberships. No more diet,self help and healthy-eating cookbooks gathering dust on my shelves. I'm starting anew and hope that a new and improved person emerges at the end of my journey.

And I do hope, for my sake, that I can follow through this time. Step one is a big one, and a step in the right direction. :-)